The question, what should I leave my children after I die? enters my mind and immediately vanishes. Maybe, I didn’t want to think about it.
Now with the word, inheritance bolded and in capital letters at the top of this blog, it became more than a weekly word challenge. It was a cement block. My thoughts were not moving forward to plan my writing on the subject.
I decided to take time to think and dig deep. Then one thought form. I asked my soul a question. This is what developed.
Me: “Soul, are you afraid of dying?”
Soul: “No, are you?”
Not expecting the question to be bounced back at me, it left me thoughtless for a few seconds. Soon, I acknowledged the question, am I afraid of dying? Well, no. Yet, I rather live, than to go to heaven and see God’s face.
I told my soul, “No, I’m not afraid. I’m just not ready to die. There is too much to live for.”
Then another question developed and I asked my soul, “By the way, do you know why inheritance is not allowing us to move forward?”
My soul answered, “Probably because you don’t want to face the fact that your children will not treasure what you refuse to let go.”
Me: “That was straight to the point. Do you honestly think I’m refusing to let go of those things?”
My soul: “If you don’t believe me why don’t you ask your heart. Go ahead, ask. Nothing is blocking us. Here let me wake her. she will tell you like it is, that’s if you’re ready to hear the truth. But be aware that if she senses any bit of sadness or fear, she will protect you and will help you think about something else. She will not reveal the truth, if you are not ready to hear it. If I was her, I will tell you like it is.”
Me: “Then, you tell me?”
My Soul: “I’ve tried. I’m the one who reminds you. But, you allow your heart to dictate your mind and you both run away. Here, she comes,”
My Heart: “Soul, did you call me?”
“I did, Lidia needs to know why ‘inheritance’ has block our way.”
“Oh?” My Heart looked away and stutter as she said, “Maybe we should go. Let’s look at Instagram and see how many like you have on your last post.”
My Soul: “See, I told you.”
I placed my phone down, then I said, “I just looked. Now tell me what I need to hear.”
My Heart: “Well, you see, your children will not want the things that are in the house because that’s not what they treasure. They value you. But you keep yourself away from them. If you want to know the truth, which I know you do, I will speak like your soul does. I’m their inheritance, your heart, not the things in your house.”
Stunned, I couldn’t respond.
My heart gently spoke, “This truth has been the least hurtful but enlightening., right?”
Then my spirit joined us and whispered, “The inheritance you want to leave with your kids, it’s time, making memories. That’s what you really want to give them.”
My heart said, “It is true. But, what you must leave behind will cost you the most, go to them and create lasting memories.”
I waited for my soul to say something, but all my soul did was joined us. We agreed to visit each child and make movies that will never fade.
Memories will be my living inheritance, which I chose to give each of my children and grandchildren as long as I can be involved.